Patrice's Space

Same old same here at the mansion although there is one less. I will miss Zayra a lot. She is one of a kind with real heart, talent, creativity and edge. Everyone here is really crazy in each person’s own way.

I loved going into the studio again. That’s one of my favorite places to be. Playing live in the studio is the next best thing to a spontaneous moment in a concert. Actually it’s just as good- just different. Knowing that a song is being laid down at that moment and pushing all this air and gut through a microphone with everything cranked up so loud turns me on- body and soul. I came out of the studio and heat was coming off my head like you can’t believe. It was a sweet relief.  Making music is what it’s about.

The next day, which was yesterday, I came in and sang “Celebrity Skin” and had a blast. I learned the song in a few hours the night before and ripped it. I jumped off the five-foot pod in the middle of the song into the audience and walked up to where Dave and Gilby and Jason and Tommy were and finished the climax of the song out. Another sweet and intense moment. I felt like if they sent me home, they saw me crushing it and the house was full tilt. That’s all I wanted. They will decide what they want and need.

The house is so much quieter now that there are only seven of us here. You guys don’t forget that- even when someone is in the bottom three, it can be just by a small margin. Don’t give up on me and keep the votes coming. I love singing for you. Thanks for you support.

The sun's going down now and I’m going to have some dinner, practice and work out before I crash. Speak to ya soon. Nine Lives!
Love- Patrice

Saturday August 12th here at the mansion...

There are eight of us now. We still have a lot of fun-but there are quieter, more intense times too. I just work out hard, practice, laugh as much as I can and have a bit of wine in the night to keep my head. I left home when I was 16 and I’ve been traveling ever since, it seems. I chose my song partly for that reason. This week it’s a song that doesn’t sound anything like Supernova, but it rings true lyrically for how a lot of people are feeling here- and how I’ve felt at many times in my life. When you are lonely, it helps sometimes to remember that you aren’t the only one. Half of us left home when we were kids and it’s not hard to figure out which ones of us that is. We’re all at times guarded in our subtle ways and yet tender when we let the walls down in a deep, deep way. Survivors no doubt, fierce, sweet and tragic all at the same time.

My room is quiet every day now that I live in it alone. Needed that after the crazy trip to Vegas. I had a blast. Usually when I go to Vegas, I play a show and I’m in and out. This was actually my first time to go in and have the night to party and chill. I met a lot of great people who were just having a good time. Being around Gilby and Jason and Tommy in that atmosphere of just hanging out was good. We have to get to know each other to see who is the right fit for their band. It’s not just about singing. I’d like to make this band happen with them, but if I’m not the fit they are looking for cool. They have to make that call, but I know I can do it. If I’m not picked, my record is still coming out shortly and I’m psyched about that. Everything is almost in place.

Thanks to all my fans for being patient about that. I know, I’ve been working on it for a long time. It’s about to come out. Really! Ha.